I think some of the nurses here forget that their job title is actually ‘nurse’ and not ‘prison officer’. In the six days I’ve been here I’ve only had one nice nurse who’s taken the time to come and have a chat with me. Otherwise, all they seem to do is their checks at the directed intervals.
For the past three days I’ve been given 100mg of the Pristiq instead of my usual 200mg. “We can’t increase it all at once, we have to slowly build it up,” I was told by the nurse yesterday morning. “But I usually have 200mg,” I said, confused as to why they have to gradually increase it when I’d been having 200mg all along. Another nurse then comes up close and says condescendingly, “Yes, but you overdosed on the higher dose.” See that’s what you get for misusing your medication and overdosing. I took my lone pink tablet and walked away in irritation.
My hands were sticky from breakfast so I went to the bathroom to wash them before walking to my bedroom. I then hear my name being called by a nurse behind me. “Did you swallow the tablet?” “Yes,” I replied. “I was following you and saw you go in the bathroom. Did you spit out your tablet?” “No,” I exclaimed indignantly. After a few more exchanges he told me “I believe you, but don’t do something like that.” “I didn’t!” I protested before closing the door in his face with disgust. I do not appreciate being treated like a child and being accused of something I didn’t do. Why the hell would I want to give myself withdrawals??!!!
The attitude of the nurses here may be too because MSC is more acute compared to 2K where I was in October/November last year. As a nurse over there said, it’s the least nutty of them in this city. Whereas there were only two patients who had stayed longer than the four weeks I was inpatient last year, many of the patients have been here for months, with the longest I’ve heard so far being eight months. Goodness, you’d be so institutionalised. Though the facilities are better here, with the single rooms, therapy room and all, I think I’d rather be in 2K. There are a few nurses that I like and and a greater proportion of them do do what they’re meant to do, which is nurse.