This afternoon I met with R, psychologist #3. With the first appointment came the usual history taking. It seems only yesterday I was going through the same sort of questions with psychologist #2…and then here I was again today, but with another lady. It’s getting rather taxing having to go through the same getting-to-know-you type questions over and over again. With the GP I saw, with my psychiatrist, with psychologist #2, with the staff on the psych ward, and now with R…
Established with her that I have done CBT in the past, but did not find it very effective. She agreed with me that CBT is not the cure-all. Her take on this particular therapy type is that it works on a rather superficial level, but does not explore the deeper issue of why someone is depressed or anxious. I like her style of thinking! Or that aspect of it anyway.
I informed her that I have also been referred to the DBT program at F Hospital, but am still awaiting contact. “Is Borderline Personality Disorder a label that has been brought up for you?” she asked, “Because that’s what DBT is used for.” I told her no, nobody has ever mentioned to me anything about BPD. “You don’t strike me as someone who’s borderline,” she told me. LOL, well that’s good to know…! Though I’m curious as to how people who do have BPD present in therapy to make it so obvious they have this mental disorder within less than an hour…?
The form of therapy R likes to employ with her clients is Schema Therapy. It’s not a therapy I’m familiar with or even heard about before. But from what I’ve read so far I’m not put off by it and if it goes beyond the superficial level that CBT does I’m not going to object to that!
I’m feeling a bit ambivalent about it all, but it’s early days yet. I could end up really liking her, or I could end up feeling like there’s no connection there and I can’t work with her. I could end up finding therapy of real benefit, or I could end up hating it and feeling as though it’s waste of time and money. Who knows really.
I have an appointment with her again next week. Between now and then she’s given me two questionnaires to fill. One is the Depression and Anxiety Stress Scale (DASS), the other is a Schema Therapy one. This exact one in fact! There are 232 statements to rate according to how well I think each statement describes me. 232!