These past couple of days I have been overwhelmed by constant, unrelenting anxiety. Considering I’ve only just upped the sertraline from 50mg to 100mg starting yesterday, I’m hypothesising there is some sort of a correlation between the increased dosage and worsening of anxiety.
It could tolerate it if I had nothing to do, nowhere to go. At least then I could splay myself out on the floor or on my bed in the privacy of my bedroom and ride the anxiety out until it passes. But anxiety is hard to sit with when you have a life to live. In my case it’s Uni, work and studying when at home. When your insides are twisted into knots, your heart feels like it’s about to beat out of your chest, it’s hard to breathe, your chest feels tight and you feel like vomiting, it makes functioning just a little bit difficult. Today I just wanted to curl up in a ball on the floor at work my anxiety was so unpleasant… but that’s not what I’m paid to do.
It doesn’t provide me much inclination to continue upping the dose until I’m at 200mg daily, as per my psychiatrist’s instructions. I thought the sertraline was meant to be helping my anxiety? Instead it seems to have a paradoxical effect. Unless of course, it’s all in my head and the anxiety is some sort of a placebo effect. That’s possible too.
So do I plod along with Dr T’s directions until I reach 200mg? The answer to this may depend on how long my anxiety lasts. It only has been two days after all. Otherwise I may just remain on 100mg for now, until I see Dr T for my next appointment on 13 April.