The last appointment with my psychiatrist was a month and a half ago. Which means it was a month and a half ago that I was given the phone numbers of two potential clinical psychologists. Whether I’ve made any progress from potential to current psychologist? Well… Does Googling their names count?
It would be somewhat easier if my psychiatrist just gave me the number of one psychologist and said, “Here, this is the person I want you to see.” Basically what she did last time. But no. This time she gave me two numbers. How on earth am I supposed to choose? By which name sounds better? By where they’re located? As mentioned, I’ve attempted to Google both. One has a website; the services she provides, her specializations, even a mugshot of herself. From the description she provides, I’m unsure as to whether she’d be the right person to me. Glancing at her photo, well…I’d prefer someone a little closer to my age. On the other hand, the other potential clinical psychologist does not provide a website. So do I take a chance?
I’ve thought about giving each of them a call, having a quick chat and deciding from there. The dilemma with this method is, how do I go about doing so? What do I ask of them? I imagine the conclusion of that conversation would be a little bit awkward, “Thanks, so I’ll err…call you back if you’re the uh…better person….”
Then there’s the matter of picking up my phone, punching in the numbers and physically making the call. One aspect of my social anxiety is a fear of telephone conversations. Just thinking about picking up the phone and calling; my heart beats faster, my throat constricts, and it gets a little harder to breathe. And that’s not even at the dialling stage yet, that’s just thinking about dialling.
I’ve put this off now for a month and a half, I probably shouldn’t delay any longer. Especially given my next appointment with my psychiatrist is less than two weeks away, I need to tell Dr T who I’m seeing so that she can send off the referral to enable me to receive Medicare rebates for clinical psychology sessions.
Someone want to save me the trouble, choose a psychologist, and make an appointment for me?